Navigating the good and the bad

“If you want, or need to tell of your experiences, it’s ok with me. I’d just hope that you don’t discount your good memories because those are the ones I cherish most. “ After a few months of limited contact, my Dad and I are talking. Its complicated for me as I work to navigateContinue reading “Navigating the good and the bad”

Mother’s Day

I had a complicated relationship with my mother When my Mom was alive we didn’t really celebrate Mother’s Day. We would try, but our hearts were not really in it. My Mom struggled with Motherhood. I thought she was selfish and did not love us. Her addiction dominated our life. I never was able toContinue reading “Mother’s Day”

Happy Birthday Mom

Today would have been my Mom’s birthday. She would have been 64 if she did not lose her battle with alcoholism. I had something else written out, but as I prepared to post, it did not feel right. It felt too seriously, so instead I decided to share some of my favorite stories of her.Continue reading “Happy Birthday Mom”

Having to walk away.

This was taken at Father Daughter dance at my wedding. This is the moment my Dad chose to apologize that his girlfriend was not there. “ You know __ is sorry that she isn’t here right?” As the child of an Alcoholic I am expert at hiding in plain sight. Covering my emotions when needed.Continue reading “Having to walk away.”

Impacted by Alcoholism Week 1

This piece is part of the impacted by alcoholism series. Impacted by Alcoholism is a campaign to bring awareness to the issue of Alcohol misuse in the United States and beyond. This story and picture was submitted by Darcy Bloom. There’s all the typical childhood stuff; neglect, isolation from other people, wasted money and brokenContinue reading “Impacted by Alcoholism Week 1”

A letter to my younger self

This kid has been on my mind a lot lately. What would I sayto her if given the chance? I am sorry that the adults around you failed to protect you. You deserve so much better. Things are going to get tough, but I promise it will not last forever. You will never lose yourContinue reading “A letter to my younger self”

Hindsight 20/20

When I look back at old pictures of you it is bittersweet.  I have an entire album of pictures of you. I felt a protective pull over those photo albums. It was all I had left of you. Looking backwards makes me smile.  In those pictures, you look healthy and happy. Well dressed. Being heldContinue reading “Hindsight 20/20”

Complicated Grief

After My Mom passed away, my emotions were complicated. We lost her on a rainy day at the end of June. I still remember the rain on my face, as I ran down the driveway. Running by the ambulance in the driveway. The group of people gathered there speaking in low voices. Walking into thatContinue reading “Complicated Grief”

Impacted By Alcohol

 In December, I was involved in the Tropicana campaign. They launched advertisement that joked about parents sneaking away from their kids to drink. It was harmful to those recovering from Alcoholism. it also hurt for those who watched loved ones suffer with Alcohol.  Due to pressure Tropicana took it down, but it got me thinking.Continue reading “Impacted By Alcohol”

New Year’s Reflections

  Yesterday was New Year’s Day. We left the challenging year of 2020 behind.  Over the last few days, I have been taking some time to reflect. For me, the past year was a mixed bag. I am still working to come to terms with all that it meant. One thing that is bothering me isContinue reading “New Year’s Reflections”